Could there be two people existing in the same body... I don't mean in a "mentally unwell manner", just in the everyday-who am I way.
I had a conversation with a friend yesterday and we were talking about how people can be one way at work, yet someone almost completely different outside of work...
of course we were talking about someone in particular and it was easy to find example after example of how this person is "so different" at home and all the ways in which their personality just isn't the same at work.. and "isn't that a shame, " and "so terrible to have to try so hard to be something your are not, " and "how sad to be so different-where is the personal integrity."
When all of a sudden, I realized hey, is that me sometimes. Am I someone different in all the different settings of my life. Am I one person at work, one person at home, one person at church, one person out with one group of friends, someone else with another, one person online, one person "real world?"
I would like to think the core of me is there; that I do have some set version of me, my values, my personality, but for certain, I can change myself according to my surroundings. I guess that's why I am desperately seeking....
My friend said she was surprised the name of my blog-desperately seeking.... she said I am someone who knows myself... yeah... not so much!
I know my values, I know my beliefs, but how to live them out, how to really be me in my skin-I haven't figured that out at all.
There's nothing like a shake-up in your life to really get your mind working/questioning/reanalyzing.. I think sometimes that's the point.